I'm starting to realize something. Whatever may or may not be wrong with society is not the issue.
I am
I am the one that does not fit in the system. My bitterness is driving people away and I have to pay the price. Writhing about my feelings helps but it is clearly not enough. This is a warning for everyone who's feeling sick of things as I am and don't know what to do about it. Seek professional help!
I'm going to a clinic tomorrow morning and hopefully the M.D. will hand me a prescription for antidepressant. The problem is not that I'm unhappy alone, it's that I'm unhappy.
If I cannot forge a better tomorrow for myself because I feel helpless, I might make it through with a partner. Unfortunately, said partner will have to be a chemical enhancement and not the girl of my dreams.
Remembering that suicide is not an option is NOT enough, Other options are needed.
I feel lonely and sad, but I will survive whatever it takes.
