going with the flow

I haven't felt like blogging recently.  I have nothing to complain about.  I hid my heart into an hollow tree for safe keeping.  Right now, I just want to have fun and meet new people.  Sex, video games, music, dancing, cooking, etc... I noticed that I'm more popular with the ladies since I started wearing this "I don't care" attitude.  I'm not looking for a relationship and they can fell it.  People just want a have fun so don't mind if I do.

Take care,

See you in six months of shameless douchebagery

Painkillers

I'm starting to realize something.  Whatever may or may not be wrong with society is not the issue.

I am

I am the one that does not fit in the system.  My bitterness is driving people away and I have to pay the price.  Writhing about my feelings helps but it is clearly not enough.  This is a warning for everyone who's feeling sick of things as I am and don't know what to do about it.  Seek professional help!

I'm going to a clinic tomorrow morning and hopefully the M.D. will hand me a prescription for antidepressant.  The problem is not that I'm unhappy alone,  it's that I'm unhappy.

If I cannot forge a better tomorrow for myself because I feel helpless, I might make it through with a partner.  Unfortunately, said partner will have to be a chemical enhancement and not the girl of my dreams.

Remembering that suicide is not an option is NOT enough, Other options are needed.

I feel lonely and sad, but I will survive whatever it takes.